I can't stop thinking about the future. Am I suppose to move? Am I suppose to be a Young Life intern? What am I suppose to do this summer? I realized this morning though that it is much easier to think about God's will for my future than it is to ask Him what He wants me to do today. By focusing on the future, I miss Him today. The desire to know His will for my life is birthed in fear and is my attempt to avoid what He wants me to do currently. Dwelling on the future is safe and excuses me from faithful living now.
His call is for me today to consider everything a loss to knowing Him. He is better. To submit and to give everything to Him is radical and terrifying. However, walking in my own wisdom, and not letting the Spirit lead each day, is even more frightful. I want to stop dwelling on following God in the future and to start listening to what the Spirit has for me today.
News/Praises/Prayers:
** Baby Caroline Pattillo Phelps was born this morning at 4:23am. It is the first baby for the 13auburnfriends group. I can't wait to hold her.
**I am still lacking a computer. Apple, fix it already.** Praying for the Godfrey's, especially Randy. Jess' Grandmother passed away on Friday.
** We got our Young Life summer camp dates. Needless to say, it is going to be an action-packed summer and is maybe going to be more busy than the last one. I am still waiting to see if I get an assignment though... I hope so!
** Dad is still on his honeymoon in Italy. He sent me a text today and told me he learned to make gnocchi (my favorite type of pasta). I am jealous.
** Went to the lake this weekend and had a blast. Here is a picture:
